"I will shake all nations, and what is desired by all nations will come, and I will fill this house with glory,' says the LORD Almighty." Haggai 2:7 NIV
What if I want something else other than Him?
This question has continued to roam about the halls of my mind and heart for quite some time. You see, this is something that many people would inwardly ask themselves, while never really allowing to come from their mouths. This is a question that our day-to-day actions will often portray, while our "professional religious resumes would never allow us to confront or agree to.
Does God really have the whole of my heart, or have I simply given Him what has been left over. As you view the image above, it is of a bride on her wedding day. What joy this picture casts to my mind. What peace and anticipation it causes to wash over me. For the simple fact that remains, she has no clue of the joys to come, but she is ready to take the leap of faith and step out onto a pier with the man she has decided to spend the rest of her life with.
But in the same token, imagine this same bride, all dressed up and ready to go, but deep in her heart she knows that this is not what she wants. She knows that only a part of her is invested in this relationship and that although her soon-to-be husband has fully invested himself and everything he desires to build together, with her, and will be ready at any moment to come and wisp her away into eternal bliss...her heart is not fully towards him, but only partially.
In this same way, the Bible has repeatedly called Christians the bride of Christ. Which oddly speaks directly to me a man standing some 5 feet 10 inches off the ground with well over 200 pounds of personal gravitational pull and yet I am called a bride. And so much so that the groom of my life would desire me to be ready for this wedding and His coming with a heart that is fully towards Him.
Yet this wayward bride has so often reflected the posture of my own heart. Time and time again, I have been called to the carpet where I have to evaluate if my actions were true to what my heart wants. Constantly and consistently I have to ask the question, “God are you really what I want, or just what I want others to see.” Does my heart really burn for you as I say, or do I simply like saying it because I know I can get away simple words, but no real action to hold accountable what I just said.
Can I let you in on a secret? His heart is toward you and He alone wants to be the full desire and yearn of your heart, along with nothing else. I must tell you that there remains so much joy in knowing that within you there is no division between God and inferior pleasures and that He alone is sitting on the throne and seat of the kingdom of your heart and soul.
With Holy Desire,
SCP
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